I used also to make water from a balcony into
the garden, and in other unusual places.
"The first occasion on which I can recollect experiencing
sensations or emotions similar in character to later and more
developed feelings of desire was at the age of about 7 or 8, when
I was a dayboy at a large school in a country town and absolutely
innocent as to deed, thought, or knowledge. I fell in love with a
boy with whom I was brought in contact in my class, about my own
age. I remember thinking him pretty. He paid me no attention. I
had no distinct desire, except a wish to be near him, to touch
him, and to kiss him. I blushed if I suddenly saw him, and
thought of him when absent and speculated on my chances of seeing
him again. I was put into a state of high ecstasy when he invited
me to join him and some friends one summer evening in a game of
rounders.
"At the age of 8 I was told by my father's groom where babies
came from and how they were produced. (I already knew the
difference in sexual organs, as my sister and I were bathed in
the same room.) He told me no details about erection, semen, etc.
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